Sunday, August 31

不可能喊停的話,
如何處置
由得她莫明的繼續出走
等到疲憊不堪
等到看到盡頭
摸摸自己的心臟, 哦, 還在
然後拉著她回家?
還是,
拍醒她
罵醒她
告訴她一切已經終結
賣力出走都於事無補?
因為實情是
只有她在原地踏步
發傻的一路為自己打氣
一路以為
一路以為
一路以為
一路以為...

一路以為不停下來便可以從這不愉快的一邊走到愉快的另一邊

Wednesday, August 27

this is right

只忙著核對預設情節和現實的你脫軌
有些亂步 算大家不夠好

thanks, my new friend.

keep saying thanks is my habit recently

thanks for sin's:
dun pretend happy and get yourself drunk
( i really did this before the night u told me not to,
u really know me)
thanks for lee's:
twelve night movie and osho tarot
( i will leave my fairy tale world for this moment)
thanks for chan's:
2 hrs talk, though our opinions differ,
but u are always right!
( i admire your rational thoughts )
thanks for myself:
i did not abandon my soul
(let go so my master will come)
(after 25 yrs i'm still a believer
but i will be a mature one)

Tuesday, August 26

謝謝

dear everyone,

很想用我小小的雙手把你們擁抱在一起,除了衷心感謝和送上擁抱,我還會學著把心放在合適的地方,由the very first day到今天缺點是學不懂獨處學不懂把自己好好保護著,然後硬把自己和傷感扯上關係,愛哭,哭完又笑笑完又哭,笑笑笑哭哭哭... 很討厭。但其實傷心只是情節上的添加劑,彷彿是必要但根本不代表什麼,正如身旁的小女孩歡愉的買了一盒麥提沙,正想好好品嚐之時,打開後發現是一盒壞的東西,於是她哭著的失望的回家或是退貨,哭實質上只是一時得不到享受然後失望的反應,一點都不代表你愛手上這盒麥提沙,至少你不會因為他哭一千一萬天。或是正如我們跌了一跤會痛,痛只是身體的感覺,不是壞事不是好事不是什麼証明只是走過一段小路撞到了石頭然後出了意外身體正常的反應,然後小路依然是小路,痛還是痛,我還是我,石頭還是石頭,麥提沙還是麥提沙,沒必要把不相干的拉在一起1, 2, 3, 4, 5... 的畫上連線。
所以我會繼續微笑,把小線連上合適自己的地方安穩平靜的繼續走路或是吃一盒麥提沙,然後走去玩,走去工作,走去找大家走去自己心中依然存在的可愛的地方。
thx
with love

illusion is over

Did I see a moment with you
In a half lit world
I'm frightened to believe
But I must try
If I stumble if I fall
I'm reaching out in this mourning air, ohh

Have I got the strength to ask
Beyond the window
I feel this fear alone
Until we have
Total honesty
If I tremble or fall
I'm reaching out in this mourning air, ohh

Should I feel a moment with you
To softly whisper
I crave nothing else so much
Longing to reveal
Total honesty
I can feel your touch
I'm reaching out in this mourning air, ohh

I'm reaching out in this mourning air, ohh.

Monday, August 25

friends talk

Eugene 說:
go to sleep la lang lui
Eugene 說:
ok
Eugene 說:
be lang
Eugene 說:
dun stop making yourself lang
Eugene 說:
ok
Eugene 說:
more guys waiting
ines 說:
haha
ines 說:
suen ba la nei!
Eugene 說:
everyday I go to work
ines 說:
go to bed la
Eugene 說:
I have to tell them to give up
Eugene 說:
when the line is at my door now
ines 說:
chi ma gun
Eugene 說:
hahahahaahaha
ines 說:
thank for your help lol
Eugene 說:
just like fight club
Eugene 說:
have you watch
Eugene 說:
everymorning brad pitt and edwardnorton have to go tot door and tell them to go away
Eugene 說:
thast what I;m dooing
Eugene 說:
eveyr morning i tell them to give up
ines 說:
HAHA
ines 說:
chi jor sin
Eugene 說:
"you are too oOLDDDDDDDDDD"
ines 說:
u drink too much lol
Eugene 說:
"you are too BLACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK"
Eugene 說:
you see how long the line is?
Eugene 說:
hahahaha




thanks baby.
thanks for all my sweet babies.
luv u all.

Friday, August 22

luv and friends

yeah it's chaos, it's clocks, it's watermelons, it's everything

如果無可愛的大家, 我想我會死亡。
謝謝遠處的viv像我掛念她般掛念我,
雖然你還沒有畢業, 距離我們百萬哩遠,
在電話裡頭還是感應到你的可愛和低能,
我會留意住個市, 趁低吸納, 大量入貨。哈哈

Monday, August 18

謝安琪幾好聽

很久的當年 媽媽天天囑告
好心交給人總可得到好報 過去按這教導埋頭做
可惜隨年長一步 傷口隨年多一道
伸出手攙扶 遭鬆開手警告交出心戀愛 反得傷心的控訴
嫌棄我過份熱情流露 或是仁慈得恐怖 燙手愛意怕碰到
彷彿背上十字架捨我救贖未算好
越奉獻得到結局越殘酷 教我為免傷勢再會變更糟
圍牆變更高 圍住了自己的去路 防護罩終變成墳墓
將真的我埋藏下去 哀悼裡獨個漸漸老

多想光陰退後到舊時 童年重渡 多斬釘截鐵共處態度
我對你好所以你會對我好 心裡沒旁騖
無奈這幸福的國度 已飽經災劫無寸草
今天只得我野地裡在獨舞




好多野根本就係老套(真)

Sunday, August 17

dear芭蕾舞鞋子

生氣不再紅,思念變成透明
調色盤給沖洗過,角度都轉換過
我望著淡淡粉紅的芭蕾舞鞋子
芭蕾舞鞋子迷失了角色
先前總覺得可以為她畫上什麼
令她可以好看起來,更可愛
畫上了淡淡的小黃花,
米白色的小狗
來來去去的人們,還有更多
但當我再塗,停了一下
再塗,再塗又再塗…
丁點都不敢塗了

真相是我的確可以多添顏色
可是,圖畫一點都不美麗
芭蕾舞鞋子不再迷人
小花,小狗和人們空空洞洞的
顏料愈來愈厚,色彩愈來愈亂
原來小畫家一直一直都不知道美麗是什麼
美麗是當天自自然然發生的事情
美麗是你和我都愛回看的一刻
就是當刻
就是出現在當時的芭蕾舞鞋子
所以對不起呀 小鞋子
我會好好收起還沒有給塗污的部分
好好的收起,不會再亂塗了

with luv.

Friday, August 15

手槍和電冰箱

命令自己,
想像手槍指著頭, 要平靜。
即使一下子變成傻瓜 要平靜。
然後我發現我可以 平-靜-
因為我決定把槍交給你,
要你指住自己的心臟
告訴你自己才是傻瓜
再伸出左手
親手接過我腐爛了的停頓下來的,
然後伸出右手
打開電冰箱的大門
把不再燦爛的放進去
把不再回看的通通放進去
放-進-去
然後我們望住大門慢 慢 關上
我便拿開這手槍
不會再做傻事
平靜得連這密封的
電冰箱都不回看一下

Thursday, August 14

Wednesday, August 13

有無人都愛這首歌

Boy
Somebody hurt you
Boy
I wish I knew who
Could look into your sad eyes
And make such a sweet thing cry

You're lonely like only the broken can know
Aching for love but afraid to show
See how I miss you

Boy
Someone might hurt you
But it would never be me
I'd wrap you inside me
Be free or just hide for awhile

'Cause I'm lonely like only the broken can know
Aching for love but afraid to show
Lonely like only the broken can be
Breaking my own heart to make you see
See how I miss you

Please don't run away from the things that are real
And don't be afraid of whatever you feel
I'm feeling it too
I'm feeling it too

Boy
If you go looking
For things like in younger days
There won't be an answer
Only love can change your ways

Your lovely like only the broken can know
Aching for love but afraid to show
Lonely like only the broken can be
Breaking your own heart to make me see

See how I miss you
Boy, somebody hurt you
Boy, somebody hurt you
Boy, somebody hurt you
Boy, somebody hurt you
Boy, somebody hurt you
Boy, somebody hurt you
Boy

(i'm hapi when seeing u at home)

Tuesday, August 12

昨天在商場洗手間聽到以下對話

a小姐: 喂咁佢住邊呀?
b小姐: 唉, 元朗囉, 咁x遠, 如果唔係都"梗"住先...
a小姐: 嘩真係好x遠, 咁但係佢有無錢先?
b小姐: 哩樣野真係一個謎...um...出去再同你講...

a和 b小姐便是這個世界的正常人

Sunday, August 10

亂諗野 2

很想開始,從心真正的開始,
可是人都無隻,可是如果..
如果可以我想從心的給你快樂,
如果你想吃好吃的甜品,我會學造
如果你想看見我穿裙子的樣子,我會每天都穿著
如果你晚上睡不著,我可以看著你工作
如果明天放假,就讓我們一起跑去別的地方享受寧靜
如果你室內凌亂,我會幫你打掃
如果我們吵架,先讓大家冷靜一下,
再好好的重新開始
如果..
如果..
如果
我想每天和你見面,與你分享所有
不會躲躲藏藏,讓你看見我的一切
看完eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
的突然想有個人的後遺症

Saturday, August 9

可愛

最近和朋友相處見面多了, 特別真惜我和大家一起的時光, 時時把無常掛在咀邊, 覺得每秒活得就像最後一天是最緊要, 不必窮奢極侈不必瑰麗煌煌, 簡簡單單看到大家歡笑, 打開心屝我便高興。 近來看清楚了自己的交友之道, 不得已我不會和朋友分開, 我會用心看我身邊的人, 認為每人都有可愛的地方, 值得真惜的時光,好似長氣的媽媽當她心平氣和的時候原來是可愛的小女孩,常常說自己有點抑鬱的陳小姐根本上是一個攪笑能手, 每星期電我一次的聰看似衰衰格格的屎繪佬, 其實是一個盡責的好哥哥好老公, 還有novem其實她是溫柔又有愛心的好女孩,很多很多... 我用的心我確實知道, 這個心不會突然消失的。為什麼有些人可以把友誼擦走,難道多年的感情真的不可愛嗎?原來的一切是假的嗎?當丁點兒的誤解出現後我們便立即回到不認識的最初。

死得好慘。

Tuesday, August 5

亂諗野

moment:初夏
type:音樂會
mood:陽光/黃昏/星星
venue:outdoor/石澳或西貢
guest:我,我的愛人和我愛的人們
color:米白色和一些懷舊彩色和各人的開心顏色
must have items: 音樂/唱歌的人/wine/美吃/笑聲/感動/照相機... ...


**my weight: lower than 100lbs(low b)
低b,
人都無隻,
亂諗野

Monday, August 4

怎捨去睡

看著,想著,寫著,聽著,坐著...
愛著,停著,思著,哭著,叫著,
醉著,痛著,哀著,忘著,爛著,
不想睡.

大部份張貼的時間是錯的,
攪錯...
最有意義/思的東西都失去意義,
從今要捉住對的時間.

Sunday, August 3

the gently waves

If I could tear my heart
And keep it miles apart
From love of beast or man
And never give a damn
If I could learn to lie
And never show my pride
I'd be just like the rest
Be someone I detest

I'm always looking for the sun
I'm always looking for the sun to shine

Love...
Destroys the best of us
Then leaves the rest of us
Thinking perhaps we'll die
Yet still we stay alive
Lost in a hollow frame
With lonely tears remain
Not knowing our life's worth
Dragging around the earth
How false the light

You make me satisfied
You only want to ride
But that's alright by me
We happen to be free
And if we fall from grace
At least we had a taste
Of something more than this
Unresolved black abyss

I'm always looking for the sun
I'm always looking for the sun
I'm always looking for the sun
I'm only looking for the sun to shine

*love die this album long time ago,
even now,
love die**

Friday, August 1

挪威的森林

村上春樹《挪威的森林》
陳英雄搬上大銀幕2008-08-01
曾執導《三輪車夫》及《青木瓜之味》的法籍越南裔導演陳英雄,與日本著名作家村上春樹交涉4年,終獲對方首肯把其名作《挪威的森林》首度搬上大銀幕,明年初開拍,預計2010年上映。日本富士電視台有份投資,卡士及製作費則未定,但將由日本演員主演。